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So it’s 1:30AM on a blah October Saturday night, and ….

I’m fed up to HERE (draws imaginary line two feet above his head).

I feel that I’ve been pressed further than I’ve ever been pressed before (which is probably not true), and I’m (for once) going to stick up for myself (which is definately true), no matter what it means — because in the end, I know it will mean the BEST for me. (He says as his ring lies underneath his monitor)

I love my friends, and I know I’ve disregarded their wisdom in the past, and I know I love Jason, and I’ve put with more of shit that I’ve needed to in the past, and today — I’m in the present — where all I’ve concerned with IS MY FUTURE — and that may not be pretty for all concerned.

I pray that things may work out well between all of the above, but I WILL NOT SACRIFICE WHAT I KNOW IS RIGHT for any of the above. Above all, I PUT MYSELF first, and it’s about god damned time. If you thought I was pissed about my ex owing me $25K, .. I was just getting warmed up!

Sincerely

J R R Tolkein